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September 20th, 2007
09:01 am - Review
Wierdest week and a half ever.
Teri is leaving....Ill see her for like two weeks then poof.
I dont even know what to think.
Im going to live by myself....
Yah petty much scared shitless.
Going back to church.....
I need to see if it is still for me
Jill Derby wants to talk to me...
Dont know how to tell her NO
Havnt been wanting to go out till 4am
Im focused on school for once and now it feels like my "friends" dropped me
Times are a changin thats for damn sure.
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June 21st, 2007
09:46 pm - Morning
This morning I woke up on the floor of Ashley/Josh's apartment.
Feedy Feedy (cat) was spooning me and Willy Wonka (puppy) was on the other side, and then there was Jacob sans pants snoring from the sofa.....summer has arrived.
I have a feeling I need to make this one count. By next summer I could hgave a very important big girl job, or be doing the same thing.
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June 1st, 2007
09:21 pm - Ug.
Why would you want to run home and make a pot roast when you could go to he river, road trip, swing ect.
I guess I just dont get it cause I dont have it.
But it frustrates the shit out of me.
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May 18th, 2007
03:10 pm - Grad.
Graduation.......TOMORROW.
Yikes.
Everyone is coming Alyse, Ashley, and Bacon spent tons of time getting their shifts coverd so they could come too. I have great friends old and new and this just proves it.
My mom is driving me fucking nutz and the 18 family members that came into town isnt making my life stress free thats for sure....but at this point I dont care. Im just excited.
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April 30th, 2007
09:56 am - PUPPY
Fist I would like to say Im getting a PUPPY !!!!!!
Chocolate Cocker he was born two saturdays ago.
Teri and I are still workin on the name the options are Harpo,Sharfenberger( berger for short), Charleston, and Milton ( for the founder of Hershey). It has to be a choc name. I get to go and pick him up June 18th.
I think this will be really good for me. I think its time I grow up a little, Im ready. I would love to be in a relationship and happy ...blah blah blah but thats not in the cards right now. I think its time I start taking care of myself and stop always worrying about others. I am so consumed in my friends problems and Im losin myself....I dont like it. Doesnt anyone realize I have my own problems, and I might need somebody to talk about it with....jeez.
I want a good summer free of this crap that I feel right now. I know that I like to know secrets, but I wish I didnt know this one. It just stresses me out and I dont need that right now.
I remember when all of us that were friends would just sit around and talk all afternoon and just have fun. I miss that. I miss alot of things.
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April 25th, 2007
12:43 am - Forget
I just want to forget how I felt.
Im glad were just friends.
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April 16th, 2007
01:59 pm - This makes me fuckin laugh when you put it this way
I like a boy.
He likes a girl.
The girl has a boyfriend.
We are all friends.
None of us know who likes who.
I know that he likes the girl.
I know the girl likes the boyfriend.
She does not like the boy.
She knows that I like the boy.
She knows that she does not like the boy.
She likes her boyfriend.
The boy knows that she does not like him.
The boy does not know I like him.
Because,
I know he likes the girl.
And the boyfriend knows nothing.....
Wow my life is just plain silly.
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April 10th, 2007
03:39 pm - Bad Monday.
He died on monday...and I didnt get to say goodbuy.
I didnt call on Easter, and I should have.
Through this all I have the best support system I could ask for..my friends.
Teri, Hailie, Megan, Zach, Ashley, Chelsea and everyone else all were there to keep my mind off things and stop me from driving to Oregon by myself in the middle of the night. I appreciate it more than anything.
Clifford Bailey was a good man and an excellent grandfather.I will miss him sooo much.
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April 4th, 2007
08:03 pm - Life.....
Everything right now seems to be out of control and I dont have the answers. Usually I would just walk away in times like this but Im forcing myself not to, it kinda makes me wanna throw up in my mouth a little.
Maybe things will turn out different this time.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/scared.gif) nervous
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March 28th, 2007
07:34 pm
True love is rare, so when you find it don't let it go just because of a barrier you can't cross.
Ray H Wall
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March 3rd, 2007
10:28 am - Sick to my stomach and dramatic
So I pretty much want to scream. It sucks when your right...again. People say I over react about this stuff.... and then she proves my point and laughs about it and blows it off like its no big deal. It feels like a big deal to me. Im the one alone, not her.
When the fuck does it get to be my turn. Just once.
I mean really when is it going to be me just me.
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November 9th, 2006
02:51 pm - Very Sad
I feel hollow inside.
The past two days have been filled with lots of Goddamits.
All of us always knew it was a long shot, but you alway have that hope.....
But you know what? What we all wanted happened. The country is headed in a new direction, and that was Jill's dream and we all helped get it there. Im happy for that.
I can walk away saying I helped as Deputy FInance Director raise almost 2 MILLION dollers. And I have made some of the best friends a girl could have. And the friendships I had before only got stronger.
At times I wanted to just walk away from this expierence and never do something like this again. Then I was made part of a new family that I will never forget it . To people who dont work on elections this is so hard to explain. I have been running a race for the last five months and we crossed the finish line, just not before the other guy did.
Day two of not having a job.
Now I am putting my application in for the Presidential races.
Obama 08?
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October 4th, 2006
03:30 pm - uucckkkk
Suffocating.....I want my life back . REAL BAD
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/sleepy.gif) exhausted
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September 23rd, 2006
05:21 pm - yack
All I have to say is 45 days left and then I am free. Who convinced me to quite Starbucks....I want to hurt that person.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/sick.gif) sick
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August 1st, 2006
05:46 pm
So I dont know whats up with me lately. Maybe its cause Im getting older but I seem to be putting off this Im grumply/not haveing fun vibe even if I am.
People keep makeing little things into big issues and I cant handle it at all anymore, I dont have time to. I work all the time and try to fit everything else into two days...word to the wise that doesnt work AT ALL now I just feel tired and drained all the time. I just keep thinking only till November then I can sleep and see my friends ( if their still there).
I got my break last week to go see my godson and my best friend in Texas. It made me realize that my stress is nothin compared to hers. She has a three month old, is trying to get out of the army and her husband is in Iraq that is alot of shit to deal with, but through all of that she is happy. It makes me wonder why i cant be that way, And it made me want a baby...eventually.
I hope that 22 isnt this stressful.....
Current Mood: tired
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May 7th, 2006
04:59 pm - Big Girl Job
Im gettting a big girl job...and it scares the hell out of me. Ta ta barista hello ass. finance director for Jill Derby for Congress....yikes. Im a little scared I wont have time for life, at the same time this might make me want to get out there more, so who knows.
Aufvietesehn Starbucks...hallo Politics.
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February 7th, 2006
01:28 pm
I never write on this, but I think I should more.
So heres the update:
School is kickin my butt early this semester,only 1 more year....yes.
I think I wan to be a teacher/ librarian/ dammit Im confused
I miss my friends. This makes my heart hurt and makes me realize that I am an ass for not trying to keep in touch. But im trying to get better, with the people that matter.
I miss going to shows.
I will change this...if I ever get a night off.
Im going to be a god mother, i cant believe it. I am soooooo excited, and honored that they picked me.
My house for some reason smells like a old corndog......I think we need to clean BAD.
I am happy.
I was told I need to get my groove back ( thank you seth) So I have been trying but I think I need directions on how to do this cause Im pretty much suckin at it. Suggestions?
That is pretty much all I got for now.
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Current Music: hellogoodbuy
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November 8th, 2005
04:42 pm
I have been in the library for six hours already, and I know I have so much more to do.....I want the semester to be over now.
I feel like I havnt seen anyone in so long....But I have to do good this semester.
So I am here and I want to be at home....damn me for not haveing a computer at home.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/stressed.gif) stressed
Current Music: The Bled
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July 18th, 2005
08:24 pm
Sooo I am going to be 21 in less than a month.....yay for going out and not being left at home yay...DD here I come
Sadness that my inner circle will be down to one in like two weeks....CALL ME
Alex will be back FOREVER when I come back from vacation. Ohhhh how the trio will reunite once again.
Current Mood: energetic
Current Music: Devo
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July 1st, 2005
02:07 pm - Firsts and lasts
I cant wait till I get out of this place....
Warped Tour in Sac.
B day in San Fran
then...
Eureka
Central Point
Portland
SAN DIEGO....
YESSSSSSS
OHHH ANd Im an Aunt now..to Douglas Ryan Bailey ( he already has huge feet for a baby...thats definitly a Bailey trait! )
And the Inner Circle is all in one town for prob the last time ever....crazy and sad
Current Mood: ecstatic
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